I have been having terrible dreams lately. TERRIBLE DREAMS. Those dreams that you totally think are really happening, and then a police officer knocks on your door and tells you your husband died in a car crash and you FREAK OUT, and then you wake up. OR, those dreams where YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE for leaving the gate open and you come home to find that your sweet little perfect dog has been hit by a car and died and it is ALL YOUR FAULT because you messed up and you FREAK OUT, and then you wake up. Yeah, those kinda bad dreams.
Anybody else had bad dreams like that when they are pregnant? (My best friend Charing said she had them about the war when she was pregnant, which I can also see being terrifying and I hope I don't add that to the list of horror dreams.) I can see why it is happening. My mind is terrified of losing Nick and being alone, or my mind is terrified I will totally screw something up with the baby, and it will, you know, be my fault that something terrible happens. It is my fears manifesting into my dreams, but damn they are horrifying. The wake up shaking kind of terrifying. I am really hoping it isn't something that lasts, but I have had one every couple of nights for the last couple of weeks. They never get better, and I never think while it is happening, "Hey, is this one of those dreams again??" I just FREAK OUT. So yeah, I am having bad dreams.