Friday, October 31, 2008
Anyway, if I KNEW we weren't doing anything I would have saved the old pictures of Halloweens past for today, but now I already used those and I have nothing...sad. Hope everyone has a great Halloween whatever you are doing! (even if you are lame like me and staying on the couch...I wont judge you...somebody has to hand out the candy!)
Thursday, October 30, 2008
So besides the clothes getting a little tight, all is well. The unbuttoning of the pants and not letting myself get too hungry has totally gotten the nausea under control. Honestly, at nine week in, I am feeling great!
**It cracked me up how many of you mentioned the boob situation in the reunion pictures! I noticed it, but figured it wasn't something that anyone else would see...Guess I was wrong! As a girl who has always been small chested, it is kinda nice...although I didn't tell many people at the reunion that I was pregnant, so I wonder where they think the new boobs came from?? **
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
I wish I could send you in a direction here, but I really have no idea what's what. I think the left side of the little bean is the head...I think. Still, pretty cute, right?? As proof of how much bigger the baby is, here is a shot of our first pic from two weeks ago...Sorry this is a little blurry, but baby C is that tiny little dot on the left side of the screen....
So clearly he/she is growing at an alarming (and completely appropriate) rate! With this appointment we have been officially released from Doc's office and will be making our way to a real and true OB! We have our first appointment with them on Nov. 10th, so just another little two week wait.
* I am trying out a few names for this little one since we wont know if the baby is a boy or girl until the actual delivery. Baby C is at the top of the list because...well, I have always kinda called the baby "baby C" for our last name, which isn't a secret but I never type it out on the blog because it is SERIOUSLY unusual and there are about 25 of us in the world. When you google it, you get Nick and his research, his brother and his band, his sister and our sorority, his uncle who is a fire fighter, ect... so I just would rather not have bio-girl be on the top of that list of family sites whenever someone googles our last name! Anyway, the point is that we are trying out Baby C. If I suddenly change to something totally random, just roll with it...
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Does anybody know it is true that when you do IVF your body starts to have noticeable changes faster than if you don't? It makes since because of all the hormones, but I just wondered if it was actually that girls who have had infertility are more just willing to move right into the "showing" part of the pregnancy. I would have thought the it was just people wanting to show, but now that I am looking at myself it is hard to believe this isn't my body making some early changes!
So what else to say at eight weeks...well, the baby is the size of a grape now! (not a good support for eight week belly discussion) The picture that google sends me each week no longer looks like an alien and is actually starting to look a little baby like! we have another ultrasound on Monday, which I am thrilled about. That should be the last appointment with the fertility doc! Then we will be just like regular pregnant people! So I guess that is it. We are completely thrilled to be eight entire weeks pregnant!
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
I kinda thought it was a one shot deal. I had pushed myself a little to far and my body didn't like it one bit. The problem is that since then my body seems to have decided that is the best way to let me know how it feels! Small twinge of hunger...nausea. Eat some food, any food...nausea. God forbid eat too much food...GOD HELP HE HEART BURN WITH NAUSEA. (I know...I am such an attractive pregnant person. Add in the lovely acne and the fact that I seem to be a little more hairy, and people will not be able to stay away...also, I think I MIGHT tell my blog readers to much...)
Anyway, back to the nausea. The definition of too much food is now new. For instance, last night for our anniversary dinner I ate a couple pieces of a blooming onion, about 3/4 of a salad, 1/4 a steak and 1/2 a potato. I thought I might die. Yet again, I had Nick stop on the way home. And yet again I wasn't actually sick. Just overwhelmed with nausea. I guess I need to learn the difference between painfully nauseous and actually about to puke...I am just afraid if I don't air on the side of caution, then I might REALLY regret that decision later. As will anybody who is around me when I say, "Oh NO. I just thought it was a little nausea..."
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
I am going to go ahead and post the picture slide show I made from our wedding two years ago. I posted it last year, but I have a lot of new readers now, so I thought you might like to see a little bit of our wedding too!!
Sarah and Nick's Wedding from sareshep on Vimeo.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Once we got down to campus we realized that it was kinda cold outside. We thought we were ready, but I really don't think we were. The wind...it was PAINFUL. It didn't help that the team gave us little to cheer for the majority of the game. I am extremely anti leaving games early (my dad taught me there is always a world of time!! Don't be the person to leave early!!) but with five minutes left and down by two scores, when we threw an interception I wasn't fighting the group when they stood up to go. Over half the stadium had cleared...we stuck it out the best we could...
THEN, as we started making out way down the stairs (there were lots of them...) UK recovered a fumble! I KNOW. (Did I ever tell you that I LOVE football?? LOVE IT. So, just hang with me on the football talk and then I will show you a couple pictures!) So, we stop and scoot back into some random empty seats to see if we can do anything with four minutes left. down by TWO scores. You know what happened?? WE WON. Yep. After three quarters and ten minutes of terrible football, we put together two amazing drives and scored TWICE to win the homecoming game. IT. WAS. AWESOME. And that is why, no matter how cold you are, and no matter how bad your team has been playing, you should always stay because there is a WORLD OF TIME LEFT!
And one more of me and Nick. See how we have a nice birds eye view of the field? (nice way of saying our seats were kinda high, but we liked them!)
So that's it. We had a great time grilling out and considering the end, I would say the game turned out pretty wonderful too. Plus, at some point Nick and I walked down and found that they were selling Philly Cheese steak sandwiches....yummmmm...it was worth going to the game just for that!
Friday, October 17, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Today I am in MY OWN JEANS! That is big. I have worn some of my own pants since the IVF, but not something as unforgiving as jeans. They seem to be fine now, but I am taking my amazing little belly band thing to work just in case they get to tight and I need to undo the button! At my ultrasound Doc told me that my ovaries were "almost" back to normal size. This surprised me. I had just assumed they went back to normal long ago, but he said when they get as large as mine did, it takes several weeks. I am thinking they might have had something to do with my inability to wear my own jeans up until now!
Besides those random things, all is amazing! I am sleeping a lot more than I ever have before, but when I wake up in the mornings I feel great. We have another ultrasound on the 27th, and I cannot wait to see our sweet little baby again! It just seems amazing that I am already seven weeks along...
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
This is our first Halloween together back in 99...look at how young we look (and how tiny my arms are)!Some random year. It took us a long time to start dressing in couple costumes.This is only half on Nicks costume, and is actually his back...he had an additional costume on the front side...as for me, my mom made my outfit, and made it scandalously shortThis was our first couple costume, and it is one of my favorites. These were totally made from scratch (like anybody would sell these) and Nick is wearing women's underwear. He will do anything for a good costume.Last year we were Tetris. That shape would also be good for a pregnant girl!
So you see, we need to get to work. We have an idea. An Awesome idea. But these costumes aren't going to make themselves! Maybe we will get started tonight...
Monday, October 13, 2008
Sunday, October 12, 2008
There is, of course, still the question of twins. We honestly wrote off the idea of twins back on the day of the blood test when the IVF nurse said "your beta looks like a strong positive for one, but not high enough to make us think it is two". Somehow Nick and I took this opinion as solid fact. The idea of twins has only recently snuck back into our minds as a possibility. Honestly I would be shocked (SHOCKED) if it were twins. I just feel like I would know. I know, that is stupid seeing as how I feel so normal I really don't think I would "know" I was pregnant at this point if it wasn't for the positive test. Still...we aren't expecting it, but we are definitely aware that there is a chance. And we will know the answer tomorrow! I will try to post on lunch and let you all know how the ultrasound goes. If I can't, I will get a post up as soon as I get home from work! So excited...
Friday, October 10, 2008
Twilight HD Exclusive Trailer
It clearly can never be as good as the book, but I am so excited for Thanksgiving weekend! (I am sure the family time will be nice too...)
**Emily, I know you are on bed rest. Buy these books! They will make those two weeks fly by!!**
Thursday, October 9, 2008
I have been thinking (obsessively) about the possibility of symptoms. I am pretty sure I don't really have any. I mean, I am TIRED. But I have been tired before I was "pregnant" so I can't really say for sure that it is only pregnancy induced. It could be the fall coming on. I always like naps in the fall. Then I thought about telling you all about how yesterday my stomach was...off. Like queasy. Uncomfortable. Kinda like I was going to be sick. Now, I WASN'T sick. No, it all passed. Mainly it passed when I went home and ate half a jar of bread and butter pickles. It is the second jar I have finished...this week, but THAT isn't weird. I mean, I have always really loved me some bread and butter pickles. Sure, I don't usually sit around and eat them, especially not to settle my stomach, but it sounded like it would work, and it did! (then a little while later my stomach was REALLY queasy, but I mean, COME ON, I ate half a jar of pickles, what did I expect?? I cannot even begin to call THAT a pregnancy symptom). So, that's it. No symptoms at all. Just six weeks pregnant and PERFECTLY NORMAL.
Funny how as I struggled with infertility I searched for ANY sign I might possibly be pregnant, and now that I am I am so quick to shoot down all signs. Explain them away. I think it is fear. Fear of losing all of this, because i have never been so happy about something before in my entire life. Hello week six. I am so happy to meet you!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
I know a lot of people walk out of high school and say, "Thank GOD it's over! I will NEVER go back!", but that honestly wasn't me. I loved high school. I was really active in school and had lots of amazing friends. If you asked me on graduation day if I would ever consider skipping the reunion I would have laughed in your face. At that time, this was the best time of my life! I would NEVER miss seeing these people again. The thing is, over the next ten years I realized that it was only the best time of my life...so far. Things honestly just got better. I went to college and made new friends. Not necessarily better friends, but friends that are more like the adult I was becoming. I got an amazing job and an amazing husband. I love my life now, and never really think about or miss the school days. I stayed close to some high school friends for a few years, but honestly now I am only close to one. My best friend growing up, Nancy, isn't able to come to the reunion because she is in a wedding. It was a blow. If she was going, there would be no doubt. But she isn't ...and I have to decide if I want to go alone. (well, of course Nick would be going, but that's different. We didn't go to the same school)
When I was at the wedding this past weekend I saw one of my closest friends from high school. She is collecting the money for the reunion (did I tell you it was kinda expensive? Well it is. But dinner is included...) She pointed out I hadn't RSVPed yet, and asked how I could not go when I was an officer of the Senior Class....good point. Why am I fighting this?? It honestly doesn't sound bad to go. I won't be able to drink, but that's fine. I will see old friends. I am sure I will enjoy it. And yet I haven't sent the money. I am flighty and avoid the question on Facebook and Myspace. I just don't know! It happens to fall on the weekend we would celebrate both my birthday and our anniversary. Maybe that is holding me back. Do I want to spend MY weekend with old friends or with the friends I choose to be with now? Both sound good...but this is the one chance to see the old friends...at least for the next ten years.
I know this is rambling. I thought if I wrote about it, then it might all become clear. It hasn't. Did you all go to your high school reunion? Did you walk in alone, seeing friends you grew apart from years ago? Were you glad you went? I really think I will go. I just feel like I will regret it if I don't. What do you all think?
PS. If I go, pretend like you have NEVER seen that black and brown dress I wore to the wedding last weekend. It will be our little secret...
Monday, October 6, 2008
There was a bouquet toss that resulted in a bridesmaids dress being pulled down. There was boob that popped out...it was hilariousMissy and Becky seemed to be responsible for the boob incident...Becky doesn't look like she feels bad at all...
And we will end with a picture of the bride with her sweet mama!
Mandy, everything was beautiful! Thanks for having us be with you on your big day! Love you tons and tons!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
So I edited the picture so you can't TOTALLY see his shirt (I am not sure why I felt this was necessary. I know I cuss on here, but it seemed a little in-your-face to just post the shirt for everyone to see...also, he ordered it online if you are curious...not sure who else would want such a shirt to wear around town, but you never know)
So what does a birthday boy pair with such a tank top you might be asking?
Yes...assless chaps (are their any other kind? everyone kept calling them "assless" so I just went with it...) Thank GOD he decided to wear underwear. Here is Tarp's boyfriend Jim with Kim. He just had on jeans. There were some other serious outfits, but alas I don't have them pictured...here is me and Nick. Don't worry, I got my hair done today so those terrible roots have been taken care of...Charing, Scott, Boo and KimCandice and Davis. Her outfit was adorable, but I clearly didn't capture it in the pictureRyan and ArielleCharing and Scott
And finally this random shot Tarp took while standing on a chair of me, Nick, Whitney, Becky and Boo. I mad fun of him when he took it, but I kinda like it!
It was a pretty great birthday party all around. I wish they had cut the cake...it is just mean to tempt the pregnant girl who can't drink with a delicious cake and then forget to cut it...I guess everyone else was drinking to much, but I didn't forget...
Thursday, October 2, 2008
So I am fighting the urge to call for now. Believing Doc knows best and that if I needed multiple blood tests, I would be getting them. As crazy as if sounds, I would love a good wave of nausea right around now. Just to prove that things are happening. As it stands, I feel pretty normal. Just a slightly more tired, bigger boobed version of Sarah. I know it is early, and the signs will come. For now, I love that I am officially five weeks along!
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
The rest of the night was uneventful. I was perfectly normal with no more cramping, but I kept my mind on the sharp pain. I called Doc first think this morning and the nurse agreed with me. The pain has nothing to do with the baby. It was either, a.) a cyst bursting. Apparently during pregnancy your ovaries get larger. If you have cysts, they can burst during this time and cause a great deal of pain. There is no danger to the baby. Or b.) the adhesion's from the endometriosis breaking apart. when the uterus starts to stretch during pregnancy, it will break all those adhesion's. I had heard of that. That people with stage four endo can have a painful pregnancy because of this...I just kinda forgot.
Either way the nurse said not to worry. That there was really nothing they could do for the pain, but it has no effect on the pregnancy. I really feel fine now. It was all really fast. That leads me to believe it was an adhesion breaking and not a cyst. The other cysts I have had burst lingered a lot longer. Honestly it scared me more than anything. I was terrified something was wrong with the baby. It was the beginning of a miscarriage. As time went on and I felt fine, I kinda calmed down, but still, I am worried. I guess there is nothing to do but hope we are right and wait for my ultrasound on the 13th. I guess I also need to be aware of where I am when I sneeze from now on!