Saturday, May 30, 2009
Henry sleeps REALLY WELL when he is laying on top of us. He actually sleeps really well all the time, but we love it when he crashes while laying with us. How cute is he?!? Clearly the little guy knows how to relax.
Okay, cuteness aside, the rest of this post is all about breast feeding. If you find that topic disturbing or totally boring, then there are no hard feelings if you stop reading now. This is basically just a run down of the most frustrating aspect of the last two weeks and how things are finally getting better.
Still here? Don't say I didn't warn you. So I feel the need to discuss in detail the breast feeding issue. I am not sure why, but if is nagging at me to TALK about it, so here we go. Breast feeding is hard. It is really hard. It was so hard in the beginning that I am not sure how we got through it. Everyone told me it was really hard. Like the hardest part of having a new baby, but for some reason it didn't sink in until I saw for myself how hard it gets.
Henry did not take to breast feeding well. The lactation nurse at the hospital said that he had "organization issues" due to being a little early. He wanted to keep his tongue on the roof of his mouth. He didn't want to latch on. He loves to get distracted. He also loves to fall asleep. All of these things make breast feeding pretty dag on difficult. The nurses at the hospital seemed stumped. They kept apologizing to me about how poorly this was going, working with him by putting their finger in his mouth, trying to get his lower lip out, trying to keep him interested. I didn't feel like things were going that bad, but they seemed to think they were. I was a little concerned, but figured it couldn't be THAT BAD.
Then we came home. I had a nipple shield that they gave me to help keep his tongue down. I had glucose water to put on the tip of the nipple shield to get him to latch on. I figured I was set. Oh lord. Every single feeding became a two man job. Nick would sit there with me and try to help. He would hold Henry's hands down and try to keep the glucose water going so he would keep latched on. Henry would fight us every step of the way. He would cry some, but mostly he would just get so frustrated. Shaking his head back and forth basically screaming, " I DON'T GET IT!!" We had no idea how to help him, and it was killing all three of us.
Then my milk came in. I thought things would get better, but they went down hill. I was SERIOUSLY engorged. It was so painful. Painful to even hold him, much less to try to NURSE him. I tried to express milk before we started, but there was still no way for him to latch on well. I called the lactation nurse and she said the answer was to nurse nurse nurse. So that is what we did. Slowly we got away from the glucose water and away from needing Nick to constantly help. We are working on getting away from the nipple shield, but I am okay with using it for now. Henry has started gaining weight and he seems to finally get nursing. He is no longer constantly frustrated, but is now jumping on to eat. I can now leave my shirt on and nurse him, which is a big step for me! There are few things more frustrating that sitting there topless at four in the morning with a pissed off baby and an exhausted husband while your engorged breasts ache and make you want to cry.
We are getting there. We are seventeen days in and the nurse said if you can make it 21 you are good. Things usually click by three weeks. I can tell things are clicking now. I don't have the fear of leaving the house because I can't feed him away from home. I know I can do it. I want him to breast feed, and I am fighting to make it happen. Things are getting so much better I am starting to only feel tired from the late night feedings, and no longer completely emotionally drained. We are going to make this work because it is best for him and it is best for me. As hard as it has been, I actually love doing it. I love being there for him in this way, and I love the time it gives us together. I will gladly give up sleep for those things. Especially since it is working. He is taking to it and he is growing, and he is the most important part. Still, when people say it is hard, listen. It is hard, really really really hard, but I am starting to see that for us, it is totally worth it.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
In a more detailed two week update, we went to the pediatrician for his two week check up yesterday. He weighed in at a mighty 5lb 11oz, and was 19 inches long. I was so excited to hear he is growing so well since the beast feeding has been a real challenge. Good to know it is paying off! His head is 14 inches around, placing him in the 25% of all 2 week olds for head circumference. He was in the 5% for body length, and less than 5% for weight. They don't take into account that he was three weeks early, so really he is doing great. Also, he seems to have a giant brain. I just can't believe that he is already two weeks old!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Saturday, May 23, 2009
So where to begin...I told you that we were going to be induced on Thursday, but I went in to the doctor on Tuesday and he said we were not waiting any longer. He let me go home to get my bag and told me to be back by 3:30. I called Nick and he was at a shower that his work was having for him. He was so funny when I told him. It was like, up until now we both saw this as something that would be happening down the road. All of a sudden it was TIME. He finished up at the shower and came home to get me. I finished up a few important things (like post on here that it was TIME) and finished packing our bags. It was all sorta overwhelming and extremely exciting at the same time.
We got to the hospital around 3:30. They got us right into a room and got me on the Cervidil. The rest of the night we just chilled. My mom met us at the hospital with some nursing night gowns and robes for me. My mom is awesome. My dad came a little later and brought us Toni Roma's for dinner. Our last meal as a couple of two! I was pretty positive I wasn't going to be able to sleep, so they gave me something to help that happen. It worked like a charm and I was out like a light. Poor Nick was not given any medications and had to sleep on the terrible pull our chair, so I am pretty positive he got no sleep at all.
At 5am on the morning of the 13th they came in and started my pitocin. I honestly don't remember it much. I just went right back to sleep. When the doctor came in at 8am to check on me he said I was having contractions about every seven minutes and I was still 2cm dilated. At this point he looked at my blood pressure and it was good. He said we had options, that we could get the ball rolling and break my water, or we could let things slow down a little since there was no rush due to the BP being normal. I asked if I would be able to go home and like, come back next week. He said no...now that I think about it that may have been a ridiculous question. Still, why WAIT if I can't LEAVE. Just give me my BABY!! SO, I say to get the ball rolling. He broke my water and we were on our way! For the record, I think the breaking of the water was the worst part for Nick. The noise really seemed to bother him. I don't even remember a noise.
Our family started rolling in around nine I think. They can correct me if I am wrong here. I sent out a mass text that my water was broken, and that got them rolling in! We decided as soon as I was pregnant (maybe before) that we wanted our family there with us. I was worried about the pain, and let them know that I might send them all away later, but deep down I wanted them with us as much as possible. We have such amazing families and they are so supportive. I just couldn't imagine them not all being there!
Once my water was broken the contractions got much closer together. We had both sides of our families there with us and honestly, it was really great. My contractions were uncomfortable, but not unbearable. Being surrounded (and distracted) by our family helped make time pass really quickly. By noon things were getting a little more uncomfortable. The actual contractions didn't hurt that bad, but they were becoming constant. They were about two minutes apart, peak to peak, but the wave of coming down from one and rolling into the next made them feel like they were right on top of each other. The actual pain was very close to my endo cramping, so it was not unbearable, but was not fun either. They checked me around this time and I was 4cm. Still a long way to go. I decided around 12:30 to get the epidural.
I think they came around one and put it in. I was afraid of the process of getting the epidural, but it was seriously not a big deal. Then...magic happened. There was NO PAIN. I was perfect. I was NORMAL. Thank god for modern medicine. I know once our families came back in I was talking about something and Nick was watching the monitor (he was so amazing the entire day. He took such great care of me and I will never forget what a team effort the day was for the two of us) Anyway, he was watching the monitor and said, "Can you feel that?" and I said, "Feel what??" and he said, "Yeah...the epidural works!"
I think around two our families all stepped out of the room to let us rest. I think I fell asleep. Like I said, epidural=magic. When they checked me again around 4pm I was at 6cm. Our family was back with us by this point and we were all enjoying ourselves. At some point I know I flipped off my cousin for talking about food (I was STARVING!) and I think I sorta shocked my in-laws. Makes me laugh just thinking about it... anyway, we thought we still had several hours at this point because they told us it took an hour per centimeter (mind you, we were on hour 8 from when my water broke and we had moved all of 4cm, so I was expecting it to take a LOT longer). I will still having no pain, so I was good with whatever.
Around 5pm I had a weird feeling, like something changed, so I called the nurse. She checked me again and I was up to 8cm! I was seriously pumped. Only two to go!! The family came back in and I started to feel a lot of pressure. Like A LOT of pressure. I told the nurse I was feeling pressure and was picking up on my contractions again, so she called the anaesthesiologist. He came back and gave me a little more meds. At this point it was 5:30 and the nurse checked me again so she could update the doctor. I was 10cm!! I KNOW!
The nurse still thought it might take an hour or so to push the baby out, but she called for the doctor and got me set up to start pushing. I pushed one time and she was like, "Okay...hold on, lets wait for the doctor!" He came in and told us the baby was RIGHT THERE! He had me push one time and Nick says, "I can see the head!", he has me push a second time and Nick says, "Oh man...the baby looks like ME!" and then we had a last small push and Nick says, "IT'S A BOY!!!!" It was so awesome. Just overwhelming with emotions. I could feel the contractions to know when to push, but I had no pain, so I just got to enjoy the moment. It was basically the best case scenario as far as child birth goes. It was all...just amazing. Nick and I were so overwhelmed with seeing him for the first time. The doctor said he was smaller than we expected (5lb 15 oz) and he said that was because of my blood pressure issues. He told us it was definitely time for him to be born, and that we had made the right decision. That was really reassuring to hear.
Because of his size they needed to take him to the nursery to check his blood sugar, but first they let me and Nick hold him and let me try to nurse him. It was all just perfect. They then let our family come in to all see him for just a minute before they took him away. When our family came in the room, the emotions were just overwhelming. I am pretty sure everyone cried. I can't explain it, but there was so much love and excitement about him finally being here. I was so happy we had them all there to share it with us.
So, once they took him to the nursery they moved me out of the labor hall and into mother baby. Then we got the awesome surprise of the DOUBLE BED in our room! How cool is that? Anyway, we had to wait for several hours to get our sweet boy back because his blood sugar was off, but we got him around 11pm and he pretty much stayed with us. Nick and I just studied him. This amazing little boy that we actually made. We were forever changed by him.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
He most definitely has his Papa's hands. This picture is from this afternoon, so he is officially one week old!He loves hanging out with his PapaHe is so tiny! He loves to cuddle after he eats. And finally, he REALLY loves it when I rub his back!
We love him so much, and he is such an amazing baby. It has only been one week and I already can't imagine my life without him.
Monday, May 18, 2009
They had a pool going on the time the baby would be born, along with weight and if it was a boy or girl. My mom was closest on time, hence the " I'm the winner!!!" at the end. My dad would like it pointed out that he got no credit for getting the weight within one ounce and that it was a boy. Mom stole his glory.
And just because it seems wrong to leave out a picture of our sweet little guy...
here is one of him in his new stylish Caftsman tool belt that his granddaddy got him!
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Our perfect boy. He seriously is the sweetest easiest baby I have ever known. ( I reserve the right to take this back once he actually starts crying and what not.)Here is the family about three minutes after he was born!
Henry with his Papa right after we got him back from the nursery.Taking a look at his Mama while in the hospital
Heading for home! He looks so tiny...Taking a look at his Papa! He is the most alert baby I have ever seen.Settling in at the houseWorking on the breast feeding. He is a little jaundice right now, but he is so stinking adorable.He is so little, so we have to keep him really bundled right now, except for when we feed him. he loves to STREEEEEEEETCH it out when he gets unwrapped! ( I know this is super blurry, but it warms my heart)
Okay, I have a million more, but he is ready to eat so you will have to wait a little longer. Enjoy these and I will be back with a birth story and pictures soon!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
PS. My sister will let you all know how things go! She is in charge of posting an update with a baby picture once the baby is here and we are both safe and sound!
PSS. I am sorta terrified. Really wish there was an easier way to get this baby out...
In two days you will be here. Your papa and I are so so excited to meet you. We have been waiting on you for so long. I can't wait to see your sweet face and kiss your tiny little hands and feet. I want to see if you are a boy or girl and give you your name. I want to see if you look like your papa or if you look like me. Deep down I don't think there is any way you will look like me, but maybe I will be in there somewhere too! Thursday will be the day our family changes forever, and we are so excited for our new life to begin. You will change everything and we could not be happier.
I have loved every second of being pregnant with you. You have been a true joy to both me and your papa from the moment we found out you were there. Even before that, the hope of you was so strong it could move me to tears. No baby has ever been more wanted, or more loved before you are even here. I will miss you in my belly. I know I will forget that once I see you, but for now it makes me sad to think of you not being here with me all the time. For nine months now it has been me and you, and I have loved this time. Feeling you move is something I will never forget. Having your little feet stretch and push is amazing. I love to watch your daddy watch you move. His face lights up when he sees you and feels you kick. He loves you so, and I cannot wait for him to hold you for the first time.
I love all the things I know about you from carrying you for nine months. I love how you have the hiccups so often. You get them every day. I wonder if you will have them after you are born. I love that you are a night owl like me and your daddy. I wonder if I will still love that when you keep us up at night! I love how you wake me up at 4am every morning, and wonder if you will keep that schedule once you are here. I wonder so much about you. I wonder what you will look like, but even more I wonder who you will become. Will you have your daddy's drive and dedication? Will you have my outgoing personality? Will you have our sense of humor? Your daddy and I are so alike in that way, and I think you will be too. I hope you have our love of learning, and that we are able to support that and help it grow.
I have things I want for you, both traits that we have, and ones that we don't, but if they are not part of who you are that is okay. Most of all I just want to know you. To see who you are going to become. To help you as much as possible to be that person. I want to surround you with love and be the best mama I can be. I want you to know we are always there and we always support you. To know you have so much family that truly love you already. Oh how everyone is excited to meet you and kiss your sweet face. You will be so loved. You already are. Me and your papa will do our best to be the best parents to you. I am sure it will be hard, but we will always try. You are our life. We have done lots of things, but you are by far the most important. It is hard to imagine I will love you more than I do right now, but I know it will grow when I see your face. I can't wait for that moment.
Monday, May 11, 2009
Anyway, we are now educated on birth, plus Nick spent the weekend finishing things up around the house. The nursery is all the way done, the yard looks great, the house is totally clean, we are READY for this baby. Which, is good seeing as how he/she will be here in T minus 3 days!
Here are a few pictures to prove we are ready!
The crib is set up and ready to go. The baby's name will go in the big blank area on the wall...once we know the baby's name!Changing table area. See how I have my little box of things I need? Yeah, I am going to be really organized now that I am a mom.More proof of organizational skills. I am thinking it might never look this neat again. The book shelf is now in use! Notice the closet door. Nick hung new doors in this room which look so great!Got this bad boy all put together! I have a base in the back of my car and everything. Crazy.Also, sorta off subject here, but my Iris's are in bloom. They look so great!
Clearly this all means we are ready for Thursday! The bags are at least half way packed and we will throw the rest of the stuff in Thursday morning. I don't think there is much else to do but wait...
Friday, May 8, 2009
Nick is off work today to get stuff done around the house before the BIG DAY. We both have lists. Things that are must do's before next Thursday. Of course, Nick's list is much more substantial than mine. I have things on my (mental) list like wash all the baby's clothes (check!!) send out thank you notes from showers (check!!) get work in order before I go (ahhh hahahaha). Nick's (actually written) list includes things like cut hole in crawl space for additions plumbing and sand and paint chair rail in nursery. His list is long. His list is broken down into what is done each day. My list is constantly changing in my head and may or may not include "look into how to breastfeed" and "look up info on getting a baby on a schedule" ( what? I still have time to figure those things out, right??). This is one small example of how different Nick and I are...and how sometimes opposites really do attract! Ten years and we are still crazy about each other and about to start our family. Can't beat that!
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Not sure what else to say besides I am amazingly shocked considering I KNEW this baby was going to be born soon. It isn't like I didn't know I was pregnant. It isn't like I accidentally became pregnant and have been in total denial. Nope, I have known this was coming, but somehow this three week shift in due date has really thrown my mind for a loop! We are basically ready, but still, are we READY. For a BABY. I guess we are going to have to be by next Thursday!
The doctor said that with my blood pressure issues, it is just better to go ahead and get this baby out. That 37 weeks is the goal and we are lucky that we made it (or will as of next Thursday). He said that 95% of babies are totally ready at 37 weeks, and that the other 5% may need oxygen, but most still go home with the parents. This is full term. We will be FULL TERM next Thursday. He says that statistics show that with blood pressure issues like mine, they have a tendency to spike in the last couple weeks and force more dangerous situations and c-sections and what not. He doesn't want to risk it. This is what is best for me and for the baby. So we will induce. And have a baby. On May 14th. Crazy. CRAZY!
At least I get to go to that birth class on Saturday...that should come in handy FIVE DAYS LATER!!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
So I paged the on call doctor because maybe we were in the wrong place. Apparently we were in the correct place (the doctor's office...hard to miss) but we were a little early. A week early. Right. It's next Saturday. All last week I kept telling people I thought it was the strangest thing for them to schedule it on Derby Day...obviously that would have been weird. Which is why they put it the week after. Awesome.
Friday, May 1, 2009
Guys, maybe it is just because I am sitting around watching a lot of TV these days, which there for allows me to watch an unhealthy amount of movie previews, but I am SERIOUSLY pumped about some of the upcoming summer movies. Like, childishly excited. It does enter my mind that I will have a baby soon (less that five weeks!!!) and running off to the movie might not be the easiest thing in the world, but I don't care. For now the idea of seeing all of these movies gives me total joy. Have you seen what is coming out?? Let me give you a list of what I am most excited about. Why? Because I am resting all the time and clearly have no actual life events to talk about on here...so now you get a summer blockbuster rundown. This will come in handy for those of you who may actually have a life and not realize what amazing movies are being released. You are welcome. Also, each link of the movie takes you to the preview, thanks to my aunt providing a site that made that easy for me. Enjoy!
- Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince-Okay, I will admit that I am still a little (a lot) annoyed with WB for pushing this release date back from last November, but I am getting over it now that I have seen the new preview (watch it!!). The part where Harry yells "Fight back you coward!!" at Snape...Yeah, it sorta makes me cry a little. I am that excited. The preview makes me tear up. This is my #1 summer movie.
- Angels and Demons- I am ridiculously excited about this. The sad part is, as much as I LOVED every single word of the book, I honestly can't remember what it is about. I have these grey memories of like, Vatican City, and the Pope...and these cool signs where you can read them upside down or right side up...something big that I do remember...lots of middle story I TOTALLY have forgotten. I was going to reread the book, but then didn't. I don't really care. I just know I am EXCITED.
- Star Trek-Did I ever tell you I am a nerd? Yeah, I thought I did. Nick and I have had a deep love for Star Trek since WAY before it was cool. Now it is all, the NEW Star Trek, but really, I hope it is similar to the old ones. I LOVE them. I was worried about this movie, but then Nick heard on NPR (NERDS) that they did a screening at some old theater where they said they were showing Wrath of Khan, then they really showed the new one (Tricky producers!) and everyone LOVED it. This gives me hope. They better not let me down...
- Ghosts of Girlfriends Past- Yeah, I want to see this. Every time a preview comes on, Nick is like, "That looks TERRIBLE!" and I just think, "Man, that looks GREAT!!" He doesn't get why I want to see it, but I don't care. I have a feeling I am going to love it!
- Terminator Salvation- I don't even know that I think this looks that good, but I will see it because, 1. it is Terminator and 2. it now stars Christan Bale. That is really all I need to convince me.
So that's it for now. Or at least, those are the ones that come to my head in time to make the cut fo this post. For now I am off to my recliner to watch some TV. Maybe pick up a couple more movies I want to see!