Monday, May 31, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
The meltdown lasted about a minute. I don't think there were any actual tears. Then he looked up at me, and half smile on his face, and then he did it. He went for my glasses again. As if to say, "SEE how much I want them! You wont allow me to get that upset again, will you??" And when he got the "NO HENRY!" for the second time, it was back into the meltdown. "WORST MOTHER EVER!" he seemed to scream and he once again collapsed in my arms in the pits of despair. But I was not moved. We have been working on the word "No" a lot around here. He cannot convince me with these fake sobs.
When he picked his head up off my shoulder for the second time, he slowly raised his hand again. I gave him a look. A "don't even try it" look. And his hand dropped. He was over it. Moving on to the next thing to explore. Nick on the other hand, he was not over it. That's when he said, full of heart ache for Henry's despair, "You broke his spirit! He is just a husk of a baby now." My husband, tough as nails. Henry may not be able to convince me with all those fake tears, but Nick is another story entirely. I never knew I would have to be the tough one around here.
Monday, May 24, 2010
The easiest way for me to do this is bullet form. That way I don't have to feel bad about lacking transitions or not following a timeline. So here we go.
- My heart is so sad for this show to be over. When I went to bed last night I just kept replaying several scenes in my head and just...it is so full of sadness...and love...and sadness!
- The sideways timeline, the fact that it is actually after everyone has died. It just...is so beautiful and so tragic. What an amazing way to bring them all together and yet...*sob*
- When Kate touches Jacks face in the sideways time-line and says, "I have missed you SO much". Has so much weight once I thought of how much longer she lived without him. Her memories of life contain a lot more time than his.
- Hurley eventually dies. Somehow that makes me happy and sad and curious all at the same time.
- I love that Ben became the number two he always wanted to be.
- When Eloise was terrified Desmond would take her son, just heart breaking too. She knew they were in an afterlife, but she was holding on to him. Full of regret for what she had done.
- I want to know what happens in the lives of the people who left the island. Were Kate or Sawyer ever happy? Somehow their sideways life leading them to Jack and Juliette make me thing that they weren't...
- Desmond...I love you.
- So did Jack die because he went into the light or did the MIB actually kill him? Was the wound fatal either way?
- I loved that Vinson was with him in the end. As my mom said, "that's what a good dog would do".
- Charlie...I love you Charlie.
- I want to know if Clair became a good mother. Did her and Kate raise Aaron together?
- I wonder how long it took everyone to die. How long was Hurley on the island? Ben?
- We can all agree that Desmond did get off the island and go to his family, right?
- The Kwons, they just seems at peace. That was so nice to see. I loved the way they looked at Sawyer with so much affection.
- The scene in the church with everyone together at the very end was perfect. Just perfect.
How did you all feel about it??
Update #1: More Thoughts
- Where were Michael and Walt?
- Just to be clear, the Island was all real and they were alive there and the only time they were dead was in the Sideways timeline, right? That was my understanding but my dad wasn't sure.
- From the first talk of the candidates I wanted it to be Hurley. I knew he would be best.
- I am still really lost on where the Others came from. And he people at the Temple. Did they ever explain that?
- I am sad that Jack and Juliette's son never existed. I liked him.
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Thursday, May 20, 2010
Long story short, I am now signed up for my first Masters class for the fall. I will be taking Epidemiology, working towards a Masters in Public Health. I might change my mind on my degree, I might only take one class ever and say it's not for me. But for now I am excited. Really excited. But worried too. I know people go to school while working full time. I know they do it with families. But...I just don't know. It seems like it might be a lot. Still, it will be a slow process. One to two classes a semester. That will give me a Masters in Five years. Five years...Henry will be in kindergarten. And that's if I don't take time off for other babies, which I hopefully will. Still, it's a start. A small step towards something big.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Anyway, Henry had his one year check up today! All is well with our sweet boy. We could say yes to all the developmental questions which always makes me feel good. We talked about him still waking up in the night, and she really said that for his size it is normal. He has a really high metabolism and he is honest to god hungry. So...that's good to know. And I am not sure about weaning him now because making bottles is WAY more of a THING than scooping him out of his bed and nursing him in ours. We will see...the entire nursing, night waking thing might get its own post soon. Actually yes...yes it will. So on to the stats!
Height: 30 1/2 inches : 75th percentile (moving on up the chart!)
Weight: 18lb 1.5oz : <5th percentile (still skinny)
Head: 18 3/4 inches : 90th percentile (extra room for brains)
So, basically we still have a tall, skinny, big headed baby. And we feel that is absolutely perfect!
Now, in order to actually make this the LAST birthday post, I realized I was going to have to toss a couple pictures up here at the end. So...enjoy Henry eating his first cupcake!
Henry says, Mama, see this bib? It's says "1" that means I am totally in charge. And my first order of business is to tell you to keep that thing away from me.
Seriously, what the heck do you want me to do with this thing?
And then he opened his presents from us and got his very own swing for the back yard! He begged to try it out, so we let him.
And so concludes the 1st birthday extravaganza!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
We will start the party pictures by jumping to the middle of the party (it's how I do things) to show you the only family picture of the three of us taken. Enjoy! As you can see, Henry really isn't sure about his Elmo cake.
Grandpa and Nana
Henry loves his Aunt Candice!
Thanks to everyone who was able to be apart of his birthday! We loved celebrating with you all!
Friday, May 14, 2010
What a joy you are. I don't know how else to describe you. This last year has been the very best of my life. It is impossible for me to imagine my life without you now. You have so completely stolen my heart. And not just mine, you have come into our lives and stolen the hearts of your entire family. You are a very loved little boy.
This last month has been a big month for you. You have started walking, which is very exciting! You are so funny to watch. You will take off walking across the room, and as you are doing it you will yell out loud. Just out of pure joy that you are actually doing it all by yourself... or maybe to make sure we are watching. Either way, it's so adorable. You are eating absolutely everything. I have never known a baby to love food the way you do. A favorite is Mexican, so that is where we are going for your birthday dinner. Only you can get your Papa to eat Mexican and not complain about it. Anything for his sweet boy on his birthday!
Well Henry, I just cannot believe it has been a year. A year since we met you and found out you were a boy. A year since we first saw your sweet face. You are getting so big. So independent. So precious. I wish I could really describe to you how sweet you are. It's just...there aren't words. There aren't words for the love I have for you. I want to describe how you lay your head on my shoulder. How you love to touch my face. How you love kisses and love to kiss us back. I want to write it all down and remember, remember how you were on your first birthday, but I know things will fade and that I cannot freeze these moments. Words do not capture our time. So I will just live it and love it and always be so amazed that I get to be your Mama. Happy birthday my sweet boy. I love you.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Song: Smile by Uncle Kracker
**Henry's one year letter will be coming tomorrow. For today I wanted to share with you the slideshow of his first year. I just cannot believe how fast time has gone and how much he has grown into a little person. I hope you enjoy the video. I know I loved making it, and I cannot seem to stop watching it. And I think I have something in my eye...**
Monday, May 10, 2010
Then, before our very eyes, we watched him as he got more and more courageous. He would let go of the couch. Only for a second or two, but he was testing those legs. He learned to stand up in he middle of the room. Not pull up, but just stand. Then he started cutting the corner of the sectional sofa. Just two steps, then he flung himself into the cushion. With this look on his face that said "I made it! I am so awesome." And we smiled and praised him, but we didn't say he was walking. He took a couple of steps, but that is different. He is awfully little for walking.
Then days went by and the corner cut got earlier and earlier. He would take three steps, and then not fall into the couch as much as just stand beside it. Still the look of "I am so awesome" on his face. But we didn't say he was walking. Just taking better steps. He is too little to be walking. He is our baby. He will get it eventually, but not yet.
Then one day I was walking out of the living room. I was at least four steps from Henry when I felt him collide with the back of my legs. I look around at him, and I must agree. He is awesome. He is positively glowing at his accomplishment. And yet...we didn't' say he was walking then either. He was close though. Really close.
Last night Henry was standing at the couch, he let go and walked across the room. All the way to the wall. His legs were shakey, but they got him where he wanted to go. There is no more denying it. Henry is walking. He snuck in the new skill right before his first birthday. He is growing up so fast, and I love it and I hate it. I watch him as he wants to get down. As he wants to walk. And I know that soon walking wont be enough. He will learn to run. And he will want to go outside and play. And he will keep growing and keep pushing himself to take that next step. To set a goal for himself and to reach it. And I am so proud. And he is so awesome. And I am trying hard not to be sad. Sad that one more thing that made my baby a baby is gone.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Mama: Henry, we are going to watch the three best movies ever made. You are going to love them!
Henry: Mama, wasn't there six Star Wars movies??
Mama: No Henry. Just no. We are sticking with the classics around here.
Henry: Silly Mama
I know, I know. Two posts in one day. But when I wrote about ER I didn't KNOW it was National Star Wars day! I am actually even quoted in an article on Examiner.com about it. Because I am that big of a nerd. But seriously, you can't be surprised.
So ER. I was pretty addicted. I mean, I remember myself kinda mocking people who had time to watch a Soap Opera...it came on FIVE HOURS a week. How is that even possible to watch? But then, I sorta became one of those people with my beloved ER. I taped it and would watch it when I had time. I didn't have to sit aside a big block of time. If I was nursing Henry I would watch for fifteen minutes. Sometimes I would have to delete a few episodes because I got too far behind, but really I was keeping up pretty well.
The show...the show was getting a touch ridiculous. I will openly admit that. Plane crashes and shoot outs in the ER. But still, I watched. I was going to watch to the end. I was going to make it! Then...then TNT took ER off the air. YES. I have no idea what they were thinking. One day it just became the time slot for Supernatural. Whatever. We were like, two seasons from the end! TWO SEASONS. It might sound like a lot, but the show was on for 13 seasons, so really, we were in the home stretch.
So I set the DVR to tape it on ANY channel. Just so I can see what happens. And you know what? ER does not come on A SINGLE CHANNEL. EVER. WHAT THE HELL. SO....(do you all care about this at all?) I decided to Netflix the last two seasons. I mean, then I could watch it at my own pace. PERFECT. And you know what I learned? The last two seasons of ER have not even been released on DVD. How is this possible?? Every show ever made is on DVD. Every show but ER.
WHY is TNT allowed to get me all sucked in with like three hundred episodes (I am not PROUD of the fact that I have watched that much ER, but it is a fact....ok, I am a little proud. It is a true display of dedication!) and then cut out the last thirty? Just totally abandon me. I am sure I wasn't the only person watching. I am sure I am not the ONLY person who misses it. Right?? Maybe I am. Maybe I am the only person in America who cares. How sad.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
A few of our girls all dressed in black. These are actually everyone in our group who is on Twitter, so I posted the pic and said it was a picture of my twitter friends. Really, it is my friends who have twitter, but not really Twitter friends. I have know all these girls for at least a decade (and in the case of my little sister, since her birth). For some reason this accidental lie has bothered me since posting it, so now I feel as if I have come clean. Also, yes it is super blurry. And yet, I sorta love it!
My sister in law Candice with Kara and Amanda