Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Today is Missy's Birthday...

And I wish I had words to say... but my word-bank is feeling very empty. I usually feel comforted by writing out my heartbreak here, but right now writing doesn't seem like it can help.  I just want to call my baby sister and sing Happy Birthday to her, just like every other year.  I want to hear her laugh as my out of tune voice wobbles at the high part in the song... I want to ask her where she wants to go to dinner, what kind of cake she wants, if she has any gift requests.... I want to celebrate this day, just like we did every June 11th for the last 30 years. 

Instead I will go to the cemetery with my family. We will cry together, and hold each other... we will talk about how much we miss her, how impossible this seems.  That one year ago we were blowing out candles:
MIssy's 30th Birthday

And now we are here.  Without her.

How can a year hold so much heartache?

Happy Birthday, baby sister.  I miss you so much that sometimes its hard to breath.


  1. Thinking of you and your family today. xo

  2. Holding you and your family extra close in my heart & prayers today.

  3. What a heart-wrenching day a birthday can be. xxoo

  4. I love that last picture of her, she was gorgeous. Thinking of you guys today. Happy Birthday, Miss. <3

  5. Oh Sarah, I cried a bit! So sorry XXX

  6. Happy Birthday to dear Missy, and so much love to you my dear friend xx

  7. It's impossible not to feel your pain. Sending you love.

  8. Much love to you and your whole family today and always. Hugs! annie

  9. Thought of you yesterday but was unable to comment. Sending lots of hugs.