Well I went to see Doc yesterday. The funny thing was, when he walked into the room I took a good look at him and realized I had totally forgotten what he looked like. I know, that's crazy. I saw this man A LOT in 2008. And I THOUGHT I remembered what he looked like, but somehow in my mind he has morphed into a mix of the REAL doc and this other random doctor that I worked for back in 2000. SO... it was sorta strange (for me) when he walked in and I was like, "What the...Oh. Right. THAT'S what you look like". All in my head of course, because we can't have Doc going and thinking I am crazy before we get these embryos transferred. After that he can think whatever he wants.
Anyway, FET update. My appointment yesterday was not a normal scheduled appointment for an FET. Technically I wasn't scheduled to see them until around March 8th. But I had started my birth control pills back at the end of January, and pretty soon after I started spotting, and I really haven't stopped. I had called about it two weeks ago and they said it would go away, but (of course...because this is MY body) it hasn't. It has actually gotten much worse and is now accompanied by really terrible cramping and pain. Good times.
So I called Doc to be all like, "??" and he said to come in for a quick scan just to make sure there weren't any major cysts in there that would prevent the transfer. Turns out there were not any cysts, which really shocked me (in a good way). But he did say my left ovary was distorted and had "something on top of it" which he was pretty positive was endometriosis. So...looks like it is back for sure. But I knew that already. The important thing is that this should not be a problem for the transfer! I go off birth control on Saturday and start my hormone patches on Wednesday. Ultrasound to check my lining on March 7th or 8th, and then hopefully transfer on March 14th or 15th. I am just really hoping things work. That each step goes according to plan and at the end of this we end up with a positive pregnancy test, and then a sweet baby. At least for now, the FET ball is rolling.
*I don't know if you all are wondering about us going on with our plans for the FET with Missy being sick. Maybe it hasn't crossed your mind, but it has mine, so I thought I would mention it. Missy and I talked about it this weekend, and she really wants everything to continue as planned. She doesn't want life to stop, and I agree. I know she is very sick, but I don't want her to feel like her cancer is preventing good things from happening. This cancer is taking so much out of all of us already. We will not let it take this possible joy away. Nine months is a long time, and hopefully she will be feeling much much better by the time the (fingers crossed) baby will be here. So we are continuing with the plan. Because cancer doesn't get to win.