I am not myself. I am this shell of myself just waiting for Friday. I worked Monday and Tuesday of this week and when it was over all I could think was thank god I don't have to keep faking it (which, for the record, I was not doing very well of anyway). I feel bad complaining about how this is hard on me, because I know it is a million times harder and more terrifying for Missy. But I just sit here and I think and I worry and I am just a shell.
I have a million things to do before we fly out in the morning, but somehow I found myself at the mall with Henry watching him play in the kiddie play land they have there. After about 20 minutes I looked down and realized I was in my pajamas. Yes I was. I mean, Not like silky, lacy pajamas, but in the old sweat pants and sweat shirt that I slept in. I cannot promise you that I had brushed my hair....or my teeth. But what I can promise you is that Henry had a blast. And I truly enjoyed watching him. So... I decided to take some video to bring with me to DC. Once I got home I realized there was rather a lot of video, so I sat it to music and added some captions for everyone's enjoyment. It was nice to focus on something. To work hard on it, even if it is silly and pointless. To have something to take my mind off Friday. Just for a little while. And honestly, I am telling you, this video very well may win me an Oscar for best short film next year. If it does, I will be thanking all of you in my acceptance speech.
Before I show you the video, I will show you this awesome picture. It is in the video, but not until the very end. Once I thought about it, I thought there may be a select few of you who feel the video is...what's the word...LONG. And will decide to not watch every second of it. (Your loss.) But I didn't want you to miss this picture because it's awesome.
Now to the video. My Masterpiece. Enjoy.
Now I really need to get some laundry done and get packed. We leave at 6:30 in the morning. Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers. We can feel you all with us.