Tuesday, February 19, 2008


I have a problem. I cannot stop eating. Seriously. I even woke up in the middle of the night last night hungry. Did I eat dinner you ask....well of course I did. I would NEVER skip a meal! Nick actually made dinner (second night in a row, god bless him) and it was wonderful. I ate until I thought I was going to die, so...you know...I didn't hold back. Now, I did manage to cut out my evening cookies and milk last night due to the size or the chicken parmigiana sandwich, but still. This hardly seems a good reason for the three am alarm clock of my stomach growling!

I think the actual problem is that I have given up on all dieting as of late, and have eaten whatever my heart desires. I forced myself onto my scale this weekend, and have since realized I need to practice some form of self control. The thing is...since the scale issues, I TOLD myself to practice self control, but besides the no-cookies last night, I really haven't done that at all. I have eaten like a pig. So...I ask you, why am I still always hungry? We had the biggest meal of our lives at the cheesecake factory. I was so full I was sick. By the time we got home...I had the craving to just eat a little something...just to hold me over. I have no idea what I was wanting to hold myself over for...but still. I ate. As I was sitting at work today, I had to force myself to stay in my chair and not go get a snacker from McDonalds. It was like, an hour after lunch.

So...is it just the fear of my soon to start diet? Is it that I am eating a bunch of junk like McDonalds and potato chips, so I am not really satisfying the hunger? Is it my new found coping mechanism? I do not know. What I do know is that if I don't get this crazy hunger under control soon...I am going to have to go and buy some new clothes, and although that sounds enjoyable in theory, going up a size is never fun...

**also, for the record, I DID NOT actually eat at three in the morning. That just seemed like the start of something terrible...***


  1. I hope it is all part of the winter blues because I am eating round the clock as well.
    My stomach was laying so nice over my jeans while I was in VT that Scarlet asked me what was in my stomach (NO BABY)....sad but true

  2. Sarah, I 'just stopped by' after reading your comment at Zoots. I started Weight Watchers today. (for the second time) I totally understand the just wanting to eat feeling. I really think there is something to WW, it helps me look for better choices to fill my tummy. Good luck with whatever you decide. :)

  3. One of the biggest food "triggers" in the world is depression. Your desire to eat is so totally normal. Just go with it for a while. You're a skinny girl, a few more pounds won't hurt you and your psyche will feel better if you feed your body. Crazy but true.