I went to see my doctor today for my surgery follow up. It all went fine, and yet I ended the appointment in tears. So... you know... good times.
I have been bleeding for the last two weeks, even though they did a D&C while they were in there so I could skip this period. Along with the bleeding (not spotting, this is period style bleeding for two straight weeks) I am having cramps and back aches. I am emotional and I don't feel well. I was hoping for answers, I was hoping for a way to make it stop. It at least got the answers.
Apparently the Mirena can make you bleed. And it can last for.... wait for it.... six months. SIX MONTHS. Although, to be fair, my doctor did say that in most women it stops by eight weeks. So, you know, fingers crossed.
I don't know how I didn't know this. I don't actually know how I didn't even expect it. I ALWAYS bleed on birth control. It is the reason I have been on basically every pill known to man. I should have looked in to it, I was just in so much pain and I wanted to do SOMETHING to treat my endo. This was the only option. So I just have to trust it will eventually stop and wait it out. The doctor seems to believe it will get better. That I will EVENTUALLY feel normal. I am just so tired of hurting.
I also talked to him a little about the pain I am still having, especially on the side where I had the large cyst. He says it isn't surprising with all they had to do. He then dropped in that he did partially remove my ovary and that needs to heal. Excuse me? I lost part of my ovary? Seems like key information. He also told me he removed a polyp. Good to know I grow those now too.
So, all in all it went fine. Basically he said I am healing, and I will continue to heal. He hopes this IUD helps treat my endo. He seems to believe it will. I want to believe it too. I just want to feel normal. And that is why I cried. Because his statement at the end of the appointment was "do you feel better than before the surgery?" And I said yes... but what I really wanted to say was "Is better the best we can do? Better than really really bad isn't that hard. Can't I hope for normal?"
I have a new post up at Bloggers For Hope about managing pain with endometriosis, and since it is National Endometriosis Awareness month, we are also doing a give away! Come by and leave a comment for your chance to win and adorable bracelet!