We are twelve hours from the egg retrieval and honestly, I can't seem to think about anything else. When Nick and I both came in from work today, we had the following conversation
Me: So, how many eggs do you think they will get tomorrow?
Nick: Doc said around twenty, right?
Me: Um...YEAH, but what do YOU think?
Nick: I am going to go with...around twenty.
Me: How many do you think will fertilize??
Nick: I have no idea...
Me: haven't you been thinking about it all day?
Nick: No...I don't think it would help...just gotta wait and see. Do you wanna order a pizza?
Me: *rolls eyes*...then realized I had no desire to start cooking, and agree to pizza
So...I am kinda alone on an island of my own thoughts. He will talk about it if I keep talking, but honestly I can't seem to get my thoughts to come out into words that sounds much better than, "guess we gotta wait and see...". I am worried about the number of eggs and the OHSS, but I am also worried about the egg quality. We know that endometriosis can damage your eggs, so...it's a concern. I am worried about them fertilizing, and then dividing, and then making it to transfer, and THEN making it to BABIES. Part of me wants to believe it is all going to work, and the other part can barely see that as a possibility. I am so ready to get this started. We are so ready to be parents. I just hope I can sleep tonight and that tomorrow we get a good start to our eventual family.
***I will plan on at least posting the number of eggs we retrieved at some point tomorrow. Not sure if I will be up for more than that, but I am sure I can get some numbers out there for you guys! Thanks for all you amazing support! Not sure how I would do it without you.***