Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Over...I Think...

This post is most likely way to much personal information for most of you. If you do not find the details of WHY I believe this pregnancy attempt to be over, then you may just want to skip on down to the post of the girl thinking I am 18, or just come back tomorrow....also, I am a fan of the intro paragraph in italics..makes it seem like we are talking about something very important...

Still here? Well, don't say I didn't warn you. I think I am starting my period. I know you are all sitting there thinking, "you THINK?? Wouldn't you KNOW??" and that is a very good question. Unfortunately the answer is no. I started spotting on Sunday (day 23 of my cycle, 9 days after IUI). I was not crushed. I was not in tears. I was honestly shocked. Not that it didn't work, but really that I was bleeding this early. I am a late starter. Day 30-35. This was odd. It went away that day, but then was back yesterday morning...and it was more starting period like. (details details...details that most likely nobody is interested in but me...but if I don't talk about it, it will drive me mad...).

Anyway, yesterday I decided I was in fact starting. The only issue was that the Clomid did say it could cause bleeding, and to take a pregnancy test before I started the pills (day three of new cycle). Extra problem, I know a pregnancy test would not be accurate at day 24 of this cycle. I do know that implantation bleeding also exists, but for some reason I don't want to cry "Implantation bleeding!!" because I feel like that is what all infertile girls think when they start their period. I am really avoiding false hope...but I did call my doctor. I didn't want to start the Clomid if it is just random bleeding. I didn't want to not start counting my days if this is my period....you see the problem. HOW DO I KNOOOOOOW??

Doc says it is not my period. day 23 is way to early. That is, of course, unless it doesn't stop and it does get heavier like...you know...a period. Then it is my period after all and who ever heard of a period on day 23...amazing medical mysteries!! They say all I can do is wait. Take a test in a few days. Cross fingers. Pray. This gave me hope...maybe it IS implantation bleeding!!

The thing is...as last night and this morning rolled on I am still bleeding...lightly, but bleeding. Not enough to call it a period, but enough to know it doesn't seem like a good start to a pregnancy. Plus, my lower back is starting to hurt...a well known sign for me that I am starting. In all fairness I should mention that back aches was also included with symptoms of implantation bleeding...but to be honest, I just don't feel it. Maybe it is me protecting myself, or maybe it is just me being honest, I am not sure. But if my vote counts for something (and it better on my own blog!) then I say we are coming to an end of this first cycle...only time will tell.


  1. It's not too much information and we are all interested. There may even be other girls out there who are in your same situation and are interested as well - the true benefits of blogging. Keep filling us in.

  2. Aww no it's not too personal (plus, I really don't think you could top the things that I heard while sitting in my OBGYN's office last week waiting for a routine checkup!) I understand you not wanting to read into it but not wanting to dismiss it. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you -- you are so brave! Best wishes, and please keep updating!

  3. You just have to believe that all things will work out. I am keeping all my fingers and toes crossed for you guys!! I also love the italicized intro paragraph; it makes me feel like I already know what you are going to say LOL...

  4. It's not too much info and we are interested. I know that you don't know me so my comments probably won't mean much but you must have a positive attitude.

    Also, I will tell you that when I was pregnant that the first month, I felt every day that I was going to start my period. I had cramps and everything just like I was going to start. I too had some bleeding. It went away and I now have a healthy 15 yr old. I will keep you in my thoughts and prays.

  5. Definitely not too much information. We want to know every teeny little bloody detail. Keep up the posting. You have a loving and devoted audience. Keeping our fingers crossed for you!!

  6. You brought me back to my days like those some 20 years ago! I would have blogged the same thing if there was something called blogging then!

    I share your feelings - even today. I understand.

    Keep trying. Don't give up.

    I have now a daughter who is 17 and a boy who is 12.

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